So......the more and more I think about things, the more and more I get lost and confused in my thoughts. I look at my life, and what all I say, act, and think. I look around me at all the people I come in contact with, the ones I brush shoulders with, and those I see from a distance. I wonder if the Holy Spirit(HS) is apparent and impactful in their life. I wonder what their story is, where they have come from and where they are. The desires and passions that have been birthed within them. But, then I look at myself and wonder the same exact questions. Where is the HS's impact? What am I living out, if anything... The one whom loves me unconditionally is beckoning, calling, speaking, and reaching. Yet, I'm not listening, not acting, not caring. And Jesus, I'm sorry. I am one who listens to the flesh and to the world. I hate the concept of one or two days of spending time in worship, prayer, and 'church'. Yet that's what I'm living. Jesus is my motivation, but not my one thing. He fits into my life when I have time, and I give a piece of my heart.
I write this to say I'm sorry. I'm sorry for being apart of all those lives that read this, and yet never fully living the life of a bond servant to Jesus. My allegiance and focus has lain elsewhere, making Jesus the bookend to my life. To make sure He has things 'propped' up, and running fairly smooth. My heart has been devoted to other things without the breath of God on it. I have a duty and honor to glorify God every day; starting with the encouragement and love to all those around me. Stranger, friend, family, acquaintance.
Yet I have this fiery passion in the depths of my heart. What exactly it is remains to be seen. I have felt and seen glimpses of what God has birthed and what He stirs in my heart. And I am to tap into that, and to let Jesus come closer, and to allow the HS to speak truth and wisdom to me, and through me.
Let God invade your heart and mind. Allow his illuminating light of glory shine forth from you. May there be an aura and fragrance of the Lord upon your head, and your words. I say, pray BIG. Let the HS speak big things in your heart, those that seem impossible, or...well....possible! HS blow as a wind blows across our paths. May we glorify You, Lord Jesus.
Blessings
